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That night...
Wasn't the night of nights...
Wasn't the time of times...
I didn't plan it that way...
It was supposed to be fun...
But in the end...
It all went... with the flow...
I felt your love...
I didn't show much of mine...
Because I embraced too much of you...
Till I really don't feel like showing anymore...
It felt like... embracing everything is loving you alot already...
I can't help but to notice that...
I'm quite dissappointed with you...
bout certain things you did...
Do you treat all your friends that way?
Abandoning me to comfort another...
I don't mind it now because we're friends...
But I certainly would mind if we were in a different Scenario...
Did I had fun?
Erm... well...
I did... I enjoyed myself alot of times that day...
But... mostly not with you...
Not that I didn't enjoyed the times I had with you...
I did! But... That level of enjoyment wasn't what I initially had in mind...
I was expecting more...
It's not abt what you didn't do...
It's abt what you did...
and that I had to accept it...
Because I know its you being you...
If you were enjoying yourself when you're with me...
I would had felt better...
even if it means accepting your worse temper....
But I can see you weren't enjoying...
You even had to bring out your papers to mark when we sat down...
That made me feel I couldn't give you what you need...
That's my fault... I'm sorry...
I'm still wondering...
Why do I feel so contridicted...
I like you...
but at the same time...
Your flaws make me feel that you'll not be a better half...
I admit I'm not a briliant lover...
but I had my shares of bad lovers...
I seriously don't wanna see history repeat itself again...
Knowing that I do not possess certain attributes of a man is precisely why I desire a better half...
I lack of proper self-management, good grades, a cool mind, & a mature mindset. I have bad habits that even I feel disgusted, and my attitude towards life is just sickening... giving up almost everytime when things get worse... or giving up many things for a certain cause and lose everything in the end...
I need someone who can understand me, love me, nurture me and make me a man I could only dreamt of being... without pissing me off and won't give up on me... someone who can show me the way....
I'm a lost soul by myself... I could never survive....
As much as I like about you...
As much as I wanna hold on and never let go...
I need to think twice...
About this complicated relationship...
Committment is not the part of the problem I'm most worried about...
Being understanding and accepting you is...
I had accepted too much pain from my past relationships so much that I'm not willing to go through the same thing again...
Theres so much that I like about you...
But theres also so much of what you reminded me of the pains that I had in the past...
I know I can accept everything now...
Be nice... send you home... take good care fo you...
Love you... cherish you... embrace your pain... help you face your fears...
listen to you... comfort you... protecting you...
endure all those complaints and actions from the fussy extend of yours...
and thinking that I can change you for the better...
Or even better... we can change each other for the better...
Progress and improve humanly for each other in the future together...
not as individuals... but as a couple...
but I'm not confident in making that happen...
Unless I can see us being together and getting along...
Without me putting up much of you for you...
and you putting up much of me for me...
I like you... so much...
But how can I confess?
When confessing right now might not solve anything...
and in actual fact... It could make matters worse?